That’s Why I Wrote This Song

Book-Mockup-TWIWTOverview

Connecting music, lyrics, film, narrative, Susanne Gervay’s ‘That’s Why I Wrote This Song’ leaps into youth culture and music in the journey of four teenage girls and a brother. It goes to the heart of relationships with fathers – the good, the bad and the psycho – and how that impacts on relationship with boys and girls, family and friends, and their lives. It explores identity – dependence-independence, friendship, family relationships, different culturals, spirituality, sexuality, love to promises and hopes, set against the youth music scene.

The Collaboration of Susanne and Tory Gervay

That’s Why I Wrote This Song is the special collaboration of mother-daughter -Susanne and her teen daughter Tory Gervay. Tory wrote the original lyrics and music of the songs that drive the narrative of That’s Why I Wrote This Song:Psycho Dad and I Wanna Be Found.

In an emotional mother-daughter roller coaster, Susanne wove Tory’s lyrics, music and themes into ‘That’s Why I Wrote This Song’. The songs, lyrics, sheet music can be downloaded. The video clip of Psycho Dad was played on ABC TV’s RAGE.

The launch was packed at Bondi Pavillion at Bondi Beach with Tory singing and the band Not Perfect playing perfectly.

Creating the Video Clip of Psycho Dad

The young people of the beaches of Sydney were incredibly generous with their joy, craziness and fantasticness in creating the video clip for Psycho Dad. All the thankyous are listed at the bottom of the video clip of Psycho Dad.

For the photo shoot of the cover, Tory’s girlfriends posed on the cover.

Rachel Guerry, a talented girl Susanne knew since she was born, produced the video clip Psycho Dad.

Kids from Tory’s school and Bondi Beach community jumped into the pool for the video clip. Susanne did too.

Tullia Mawter was amazing and she played the main part in the video clip. The underwater shots were cold and challenging.

Susanne went to music festivals, concerts, watch endless video clips of Eminem and lots of bands, drove Tory mad with questions. It was tough going. Tory and Susanne were upset at each other at times, laughed at other times, cried at other times. Afterwards, they felt that they had been through an amazing mother-daughter journey and it bonded them forever.

Tory’s life is music – playing, listening, studying it, working in the music industry and even as a security guard for bands and celebrities – some of her stories are Tory’s stories as a guard

Watch 'Psycho Dad'

Watch 'I wanna Be Found'

Song Lyrics

'Psycho Dad' Lyrics

Verse 1 –

All of the times I cried
I wish you’d just die
Shouting and all the rest
But now I have learned best
What you did was wrong
That’s why I wrote this song
So maybe you would see
Just what you have done to me

Chorus –

Cause I don’t want you
And I don’t need you
You were so bad
You are my psycho dad

Verse 2 –

You call me all the time
You won’t give us a dime
I can’t believe this is real
The way you made me feel
You have your new wife
And your new life
My eyes are getting sore
So just walk out that door

Chorus –

Cause I don’t want you
And I don’t need you
Your life is so sad
You are a psycho dad

Cause I don’t want you
And I don’t need you
Your life is so sad
You are a psycho dad

Middle 8 –

I (I) really (really) don’t know how (don’t know how)
But I (But I) know I (know I)
Hate you so much now

I (I) really (really) don’t know how (don’t know how)
But I (But I) know I (know I)
Hate you so much now

Verse 3 –

You made me feel always scared
I knew you never cared
You left me all broken and scarred
And made our life so hard
I’ve got my family
And I hope you can see
That I don’t want you around
I’ve got my feet on the ground

Chorus – 

Cause I don’t want you
And I don’t need you
You are so mad
You are no one’s psycho dad

Cause I don’t want you
And I don’t need you
You are so mad
You are no one’s psycho dad

Outro –

No one’s psycho dad
No one’s psycho dad
No one’s psycho dad
No one’s psycho dad

'I Wanna Be Found' Lyrics

Chorus –

Why do I feel so alone,
Like I’m standing here all by myself,
When there are people all around,
I am lost but I want to found

Verse 1 –

Everyone wants me to be,
Some great success and be the best,
But I can never be who they want,
And I’m here to protest

Chorus –

Why do I feel so alone,
Like I’m standing here all by myself,
When there are people all around,
I am lost but I want to be found

Verse 2 –

No one hears me screaming,
No one hears my pain,
Can anybody see me?
I feel like I’m going insane

Chorus –

Why do I feel so alone,
Like I’m standing here all by myself,
When there are people all around,
I am lost but I want to be found

Interlude –

Come find me,
Come find me,
Can you please come and find me,
Won’t someone come and find me

Mid 8 –

Everything is blurred,
Between what’s real and in you head,
Will I wake from this nightmare,
Or continue to be dead?

Chorus –

Why do I feel so alone,
Like I’m standing here all by myself,
When there are people all around,
I am lost but I want to be found

Why do I feel so alone,
Like I’m standing here all by myself,
When there are people all around,
I am lost but I want to be found

Outro –

Why do I feel so alone (Why do I feel?),
Like I’m standing here all by myself,
When there are people all around (When they’re around),
I am lost but I want to be found

Why do I feel so alone (Why do I feel?),
Like I’m standing here all by myself,
When there are people all around (When they’re around),
I am lost but I want to be found

Why do I feel so alone,
Like I’m standing here all by myself,
When there are people all around,
I am lost but I want to be found

Who is Tory (the songwriter)?

Tory’s passion is music, family and friends.

From as long as she can remember music has always been a huge part of her life – playing it, listening to it, watching it. I have always been a band nerd but I’m proud of it.’

‘My family and friends mean the world to me. We have a very close family and get along MOST of the time. My brother Jamie is one of my best friends, as annoying as he is. We have been through everything together and can talk about anything.

My best friends always keep me going. There are always new dramas to gossip about, parties to attend, beaches and shops to visit, boys to meet and concerts to see. My friends make my life interesting and are the people who have always been there for me and are life long friends who I can trust with anything.’

WAYS: Youth & Music and ‘That’s Why I Wrote This Song’

WAYS supports this integration of music in story. It supports youth and music. WAYS’ Bondi Live Youth Music Project (BLYMP) empowers young musicians by giving them the opportunity to develop their talent and professionalism.

BLYMP holds Bondi Blitz on Bondi Beach with young bands. The headline acts at Bondi Blitz have included Grinspoon, Coolism, Nitocris and Unpaid Debt.

Bondi Pavilion Theatre is a Waverley Council initiative.